some people use high school to build themselves up and then they graduate and realize who they were in high school really never mattered.
those girls you made fun of, the friends you betrayed for popularity, the drugs you tried to fit in, got you what? fake friends for 7 years?
you walk past people in the halls. you smile. you don’t think about other peoples problems. that quiet girl at the lunch table sitting alone can have a eating disorder and you wouldn’t even know it because you thought you were too cool to be her friend.
you could of been that friend that saved her life…
so many people in their teenage years are worried about parties, boys, having the cool friends that they lose site of being a good person. of course you should have fun, love your life, but to sacrifice kindness is when I have a problem
do you ever feel like you don’t belong in your group of friends? in your social surroundings? your high school? I cant explain it but I’m starting to desire change. this year is my last year in high school and I’ve learned so much about myself. it took me four years to realize the kind of person I want to be, and the friends I want to have.
I guess you can say my group of friends is “popular”? i don’t know. I hate stereotypes but I suppose that is what people see it as.
growing up with weight problems definitely made me see life differently. I have so much sympathy for girls who are bullied, and it breaks my heart whenever I hear someone i know calling another fat.
I’ve always been different than people my age. i mean this in the least arrogant way possible but I just feel that I’ve always had more of a mature mindset. if you’re nice to me, I’m nice to you. plain and simple. IVE DEALT WITH SO MUCH BULLSHIT AND DRAMA…… for what?????
I never had looks so i always had to be a nice person. my weight issues is a blessing in disguise because I really believe it gave me character.
I’ve ALWAYS been too sensitive. I never really out grew that. I am so fragile and sometimes I care too much about people who do not care much about me but I’ve realized to let those people go and welcome new people in.
I may be sensitive but that should not be mistaken for weakness. When I care about you and I genuinely feel you’re a good person, I’ll go above and beyond for you.
and I’m starting to realize I only really need 4-5 close people in my life.
maybe I push people away.
maybe I’m just over this high school bull shit
I never pretended to be someone I wasn’t. maybe that’s why I never really “fit in”
now of course i still socialize with the people in my grade and dont get me wrong I do have a good group of friends that I adore and good friends outside my “group” i just feel like I need to spread my wings and leave “groups” and all the exclusive shit behind
I’ll always be that girl to defend someone who I believe is right and I’ll be that honest person that will tell you how it is 100%
although some people, the immature boys still haven’t changed… I do believe people are opening up their eyes this year. it took 3 years of middle school and 4 years of high school to 100% be comfortable with who I am and what I believe in
and for the rest of them, it’ll take much much longer than 7 years
idk why I’m writing this and I have so much more i wanna say but im tired bye